A bit of a fail...

So today has been a bit of a fail... It started off pretty well and just went steadily downhill from there... Diet-wise anyways...

My biggest problem was snacking on salty nachos and eating a crap ton of guacamole. I can already see and feel my body swelling from water retention. Ugh. I feel disgusting and I am disappointed in myself.

I also had two of these sparkling beverages with sucralose as the sixth ingredient. And I feel miserable about that... I just don't feel as good as I have been lately. I feel tired and sluggish. Just downright crappy.

Plus I went WAY over my calorie limit for the day. Some binging definitely went down.

I am disappointed and disgusted and frustrated with myself. I can't believe I let this evening go so far... I just feel so horrible about throwing all the skills I have learned this far away for a night of crazy eating...

Dear Lord, I am sorry for abusing my body this way. Tonight was not supposed to happen like this. You know my heart, Lord. You know I didn't intend for this to happen. I am sorry for letting You and myself down. I will use tonight as an example and lesson. An opportunity to grow. Please forgive me for the mistakes I made tonight, and please grant me the strength and courage to carry on tomorrow as a better and wiser servant. Help me also to forgive myself and to use tonight as a learning opportunity. I love you and thank you for giving me second chances. Love, Me.