Monday, March 11, 2013

Leaps and bounds...?

So I have to admit this whole going-without-the-scale thing is throwing me off. I'm wanting to see what progress has been made, but I can't weigh myself and I can't measure myself. So I have to judge my success in terms of the physical differences I can make out. It's difficult, because quite honestly, I don't know that I've made much progress in the past week at all.

I feel like I'm stuck at 256.6 lbs still, because I don't see any 'major' differences in my body yet. For example, I haven't been able to tighten my belt to the sixth notch yet, and in my head - if I was making 'real' progress, I'd be able to do that by now. Additionally, my rings should be loose all the freaking time. And I wouldn't bloat - especially towards the end of the day. And yet, I'm still on notch #5, I can only pull my rings on and off easily at the end of the day, and I can still feel my stomach pressing against my pants towards 6 o'clock. Maybe it's because I'm not moving enough or something - either way, it's frustrating and depressing.

And yet, I'm positive that I'm growing leaps and bounds. Heck, when was the last time I could lightly jog 15 minutes in a row...? Probably over a year ago... Did I ever think I'd comfortably complete 20 minutes of the elliptical a night? Nope. If I'm honest with myself, did I think I would be sticking with this program at this point still? Absolutely not. In fact, as much as I denied it to myself, I definitely thought that by now I would have thrown in the towel, called it quits, and hunkered down in my comfy blue chair with a bag of Mini Eggs to soothe the emptiness in my... tummy?


So while this is incredibly difficult some days, I keep plugging away. Because I know that this is going to pay off in the end - whether that be 2 months or 2 years from now - it will pay off. I know that I like myself better taking these changes into account - I feel better without the sugar or flour in my life, and I don't really want to go back...

Things to consider :)

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