So I have a few things to note in here, just because I can...
First off, I was doing some filing in the filing room, and Krista came up to me and said,
"There seems to be less of you lately..."
To which I was taken aback, because I thought she meant that I was shoe-less (I kicked my shoes off to do the filing). Then I realized she was talking about my weight loss. She said she's not one to notice these things, but that she did see a difference when we were in our staff meeting today. I could've hugged her - she definitely made my day. THERE IS less of me now... and will be less of me to come!
Secondly, I just looked up my BMI score. Back when I started my weight loss journey or lifestyle change, the heaviest I weighed in at was 280 lbs. According to the BMI, I scored 42.6, which is considered Obese Class III (very severely obese). Last week, I weighed in at 235 lbs, and my new BMI score is 35.7, which falls in the 35 to 40 range, and classifies me as Obese Class II (severely obese). However my new BMI score is dangerously close to falling in the 30 to 35 range, referred to as Obese Class I (moderately obese).
In mere months, I've managed to transform my body enough that I've dropped 6.9 points on the BMI, and have moved from being in the "very severely obese" category to almost fitting in the "moderately obese" category.
Now, this has been incredibly hard work - especially the past week or two. I've struggled with old mentalities and eating habits, I've gone over my calories almost every day, I have been neglecting to do my cardio exercises, I've entirely quit taking my iron and cinnamon supplements, not to mention I haven't been drinking enough water.
I feel crappy and guilty and frustrated and disappointed with my mental sluggishness, and I don't know how to get back to where I was before. I have considered revisiting Phase One's lessons and working my way through them again, as they seemed to really help me get to the root of some of my eating issues.
I've also considered starting the C25K program - which encourages couch potatoes (like me!) to get active by gradually increasing endurance and stamina and transforming said potatoes into runners. I figured that a 3 day/week program could easily be incorporated into my current fitness routine - even though I've been sucking at it massively. I've also purchased a few 5 lb dumbbells to do strengthening and toning workouts with. At the moment, I'm focusing mainly on my back, chest, shoulders and arms, as those are the areas I'd like to gain more tone and definition in at the moment.
Additionally, Josh mentioned switching my routine up a bit. One day for cardio, the next day for pilates/strengthening, repeat. I feel like this might give me an edge on overcoming my fitness slump and encourage me to complete my cardio AND strengthening/toning exercises each week. However, I'm not 100% sold on the idea, so it's been tabled for further review.
Finally, I'm considering buying the B-complex timed-release supplements that the PRISM program encourages you to take during the journey. I don't use any vitamins/supplements at the moment, and I think it might aid me in my digestion and pursuit of this goal.
Lately, I've been a bit frustrated with my body. I see all these areas that need work and how far I have to go, and I feel discouraged because I can't see as amazing of changes as everyone else. It doesn't seem quite as drastic to me, but I do notice the differences. I feel discouraged, because I still have so much weight to lose - and even though I'm halfway to my initial goal, I feel disappointed that I'm only halfway there. I can't wait to look like I envision myself in the future, all toned with smaller thighs and arms and waistline. Unfortunately, the road is long and I still have a hell of a ways to go. I know by the end of the summer that I'll be looking fabulous and the changes will be astonishing, but nevertheless, I'm impatient and the suspense is getting to me. Maybe that's why I'm struggling lately...??
I'm also discouraged with my eating habits. Lately I seem to eat just for the heck of it, not because I'm hungry. I pick at the food in the kitchen and I nibble on snacks that I shouldn't be eating in the first place. I make concessions for myself when we go to our parents' houses for the weekend, and snack on nacho chips and guacamole and treats... not within moderation. Like, it wouldn't be such a big deal if I could do it in a controlled manner. I think I need to revisit the basics... ugh. :(
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