Personal Evaluation
1. How has the attention from others in the last few weeks affected your attitude toward adherence to the program guidelines? Like the example in the lesson, I feel a lot more lenient towards the guidelines of the program since getting more and more compliments. Several times I've made comments like "Oh, it'll be okay for me to cheat this one time..." Fortunately, I haven't acted on these statements, but it discourages me that I am beginning to slack off on the guidelines, as I feel like I 'deserve' it. I feel like I look amazing and feel amazing, and maybe it's the end of the journey for me - maybe I could stop now and be okay. And yet, I know that I have a long way to go yet...
2. Compare the changes you see in the mirror with those you see happening within you. I feel a lot of inner turmoil within me, actually. The changes in the mirror are wonderful, but at the same time, I still see a lot of work to be done. Same with the changes happening inside me, I notice that while I have grown leaps and bounds since starting the program, I also have a huge amount of growing and learning to do. Unfortunately, both the physical and emotional changes will take a significant amount of time. I've done a lot of damage to my body and mind and must take a lot of time to heal these wounds.
3. Describe your feelings when you read your answers to questions one and two. I feel discouraged and disappointed. I thought by now this program would've gotten easier and it would be natural for me to continue on the road as planned. I'd do my lessons every day and learn more and more, but I wouldn't struggle with this lifestyle change at all. Yet, every day I undergo a mental battle where I have to actively choose to live this way and follow the guidelines to the letter. I feel like I cheat myself from reaping the benefits of the program when I don't adhere to the guidelines all the way. I struggle to feel optimistic when I see all the work I have left to do, and I don't know how to measure my progress when I'm not adhering to the guidelines as strictly as I should.
4. Read your Agreement of Resolution. How is your commitment helping you develop new attitudes for lasting change? As I continue on this journey, I know that I am making huge changes in my mind and in my body. Despite the challenges, I know that the longer I do this program, the better and the longer lasting the results will be. I will struggle with feeling discouraged and worn out, but I know that I am better off staying on this program than trying to do it on my own.
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