Personal Evaluation
1. How do you feel about your current body size? I feel happy and frustrated at the same time. I feel super happy with how I'm looking - I feel sexy and slim, and I really like what I'm seeing. At the same time, I feel I've become critical of my body as well - feeling that this weight still isn't 'good enough.' I see problem areas and areas that I still greatly want to improve upon, and it makes me frustrated because these areas seem to be taking the longest time to show any real change.
2. In what ways would you like to improve on it? What goals will you set for yourself to ensure you achieve these improvements? I want my stomach to be flat - I don't want my belly protruding from my body, I want everything to be flush. I want my collarbones to stick out. I want my legs to be more proportionate - I want my thighs to be half the size they are now. I want to lose the flabby arm fat that dangles off my arms. I want to fit into less than a size 16 pair of pants.
3. You have gained much knowledge and understanding of the reasons why you have overeaten in the past. Does that knowledge and understanding give you hope for the future? Why or why not? This knowledge gives me hope - that these changes will stick and last, because I'll be able to identify triggers for my weaknesses. I feel like the attention that I've been able to attract to my weaknesses and struggles makes my problem less scary and less likely to have power over me.
4. Are there areas in your eating behaviors that have not been transformed? In what ways will you work on those areas during the next six weeks? I still 'binge' eat occasionally. I also go over my calories especially on weekends. Sometimes I eat for comfort when I feel sad, mad or frustrated. Sometimes I eat when I'm not hungry or I eat too fast until I'm bloated and uncomfortable. I want to work on keeping my caloric intake fairly consistent every day. I want to drink enough water each day, and not binge eat whenever I feel like it. I especially don't want to binge eat on weekends - and I want to gain control over those foods that I still struggle with (nachos, guacamole, etc.)
5. Do you still find yourself overeating, even "good foods"? When that happens, how does it make you feel and what can you learn from it? I do overeat food still - even 'good' foods. Sometimes it doesn't bother me, depending on what I've eaten the rest of the day, and the reason I've eaten extra. On another note, a lot of the time it makes me feel frustrated and angry with myself. I don't like overeating for no reason - or just to eat something. It makes me feel out of control and reminds me of the 'old me.' I don't want these to become habits that lead me into trouble again, and cause me to gain weight back to the point I started at.
6. Do you eat sensibly or sparingly in front of others and "make up for it" when alone? How do you feel about that? I eat normally in front of other people - I mean, I eat less than other people do in general now, but I eat meals more frequently too. It makes me feel confident in my lifestyle and I don't feel ashamed or guilty.
7. Do you see the need to continue your journey for another six weeks? How will the next six weeks help solidify your commitment to LASTING CHANGE? I definitely need to continue PRISM for another six weeks. I am nowhere near my goal weight (about halfway), and I still have several issues I need to work through before I feel confident in stepping back from the program and trying to live my life on my own.
8. In what ways have your weekly class meetings and the support you have received there been important to your journey? N/A
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